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Gouging out the eye.

So that i can be blind.

Piercing my ears.
So that i can be deaf.

Cutting out my tongue.
So that i can be a mute.

Sinking further and further.
Into absolute inky darkness.
Drowning in isolation.

Perhaps that's the best.

So that i will no longer have to answer to anyone.
Nor hear anything anymore.

I sense the thoughts of suicide.
Threatening to break free.
To convert it into actions.

Maybe i should just release it.
And take the coward's way out.

Leaving the world of the living.
And entering hell itself.

Where my miserable soul is fated.

To burn there amongst the fires.
Forever.

To listen to the screams of the tormented.
Forever.

Until one day.

I can bear the screams no more.
And join the horde of the tormented.

Screaming in anguish.
Until the end of time.

Will you come and play with me.
One final time.

Before i fade away?