210th Post

Another night.

Laden with alcohol.

More cuts.

The usual payment.
For my sins of the past.

As i lie slumped on the table.
With my lifeblood slowly ebbing.
Out of a gash wound.

A bloodied razor lies on the table.

As i smile at the ever growing pool of blood.
I think my final thoughts.

That i am finally leaving this world.
A world that i despise and hate so much.

A world that i curse.
That will one day burn amongst the fires of hell.

I hate everyone.
The rumors that malicious tongues spread.

Why not come say it in front of my face?

Do i exude that powerful.
An aura of fear.

That you must go poison.
The heart and minds of others.

But well.
Guess at the end of the day.

These people shall burn.
Amongst the eternal fires of hell.

Sigh.

But such is humans.

They lie to one another.
They betray one another.

Even the truth.
Will eventually become a lie.

Would it be safer to believe in nothing?

No more expectations.
No more disappointments.

No more having to hear the lies.
That malicious tongues spread.

Guess it is time again.
To be locked up in silence.

And to disappear from this beastly world.
Together with my beloved mirror.

Never to be heard from.
Never to be seen.

I hate this world.