200th Post

As dusk gives way to night.

As the level of wine in the bottle drops rapidly.

Once again.
I have brought untold destruction and misery into another person's life.

Outwardly i may feel some degree of relief.
After the confession of the breakup.

But inwardly.
Its slowly eating me alive.

Guilt.
Misery.

I'm feeling so fucked up.

That i just want to lock myself up.
Shut everyone out.

Take the coward's way out.

Sigh.
I don't know.

Maybe it's almost time.

Time to leave the world of the living.

And to get lost in my silvery bubble.
Of eternal silence.