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Another night.

Soaked in alcohol.
Vomit that is mixed with blood.

Wandering about.

In a state of daze.
Pain and confusion.
And misery.

There are times.
I honestly wish.

That i can live in a dreamland.
Now.
And forever.

Sadly.
Its the bitter truth.
That slaps me hard on the face.

Constantly telling me to wake the fuck up.
And to stop dreaming.

But i constantly don't listen.
And i continue to dream.

To dream.
Of that perfect world.

No more pain.
No more misery.

Just pure bliss.
And happiness.

Sigh.

I hate the world.
I hate myself.
I hate my life.

Fuck em all.