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It hurts.

It so so so so so FUCKING HURTS !!

The pain of it?
How does one describe it ?

No way can mere words ever describe that pain.
The pain of just standing there and watching.

While knowing that nothing more can be done.

Damn it.

I've fucked up again.

DAMN IT.
DAMN IT.


FUCK THIS SHIT.

Maybe the time is here.
To truly.

Dissolve myself.
Into my bubbly world.
Of eternal silence.

Never to be seen.
Nor heard from.
Ever again.