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Silent Night.

Lonely Night.

Not a night passes.
In which i will think of her.

But i keep that feeling sealed away.
Because i don't want it to affect me so badly.
That i do stupid things.

Nor do i want it to affect others.
Especially her.

I know she worries about me constantly.
And its the same for me also.

It's hurting.
When i cannot help her in times of need.

I cry myself silently to sleep each night.

Sadly.
This is reality.
Separated by distance.

But now.
As i tick off the days.
As i refer to her sms-es and e-mails again and again.
As a reminder that somewhere out there.

She is still there.
Caring for me.
Acting as my pillar of strength.

Perhaps that's the only thing that is lessening the pain.
A reminder that she will return.

So for now.
I will have to bear this silent pain.

It's like taking a blunt meat cleaver.
And trying to cut someone's heart into 2.

That is the pain that i am feeling everyday.

Sigh.

Waiting in silence.
For your return.

I miss you.