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As i sit on my chair.

Sipping on my usual glass of red.
Sometimes I just have the urge to just give up on everything.

Friends.
Family.
Relationships.
Studies.
Life.

To just isolate myself from everyone.
To turn a deaf ear on the advice.

And to just drink and drink and drink away.
Until i can drink no more.

True enough.
Many will say that it will solve nothing.
Problems will still remain.

But i just want to forget about it for the time being.
Until i can devote the proper energy to tackle it.
It's so tiring.

I feel broken.
Mentally.


The hole is getting deeper.
The stress is piling up.

Sometimes i wonder.
Will i ever manage to climb out?

Will i ?
Or am i destined to remain trapped in that pit forever.

Sinking deeper and deeper.
Drowning in a sea of blood.
And despair.

Sigh.
Damn it.
Fuck this shit.

Time to fill out a Burial Application at the Burial Agency.