136th Post

To begin a course of self isolation.

Or not to begin?

To hide from everyone.
Or not to hide?

Would self isolation be my final solution to all the problems?
Or would i eventually crack under the weight of loneliness?

Nowadays.
I find it harder and harder to write.
Not because its a chore.
But because of the question of "how much do i want to reveal?".

Every time i wake up.
I feel shattered.
I feel like crying.
I feel like there is something missing.

There are times i wish to sleep like an angel.
But there are also times i hate sleeping.
Because of fear of those feelings returning.

It's such anguish.
I wish i was never came into existence.