338th Post

A brand new year.

I think not.

For it seems to me.

Time has frozen onto itself.

The misery remains.

The pain remains.

The searing hate remains.

I thought they would dissolve over time.

But i thought wrong.

They were there to stay.

Until i dealt with them.

But where can i find vital strength to do that?

Dark thoughts cloud the dim light.

Thoughts of taking the coward's way out.

But what is holding me back?

Every night i lie to myself.

I smile at the image that reflects off the mirror.

Telling myself that tomorrow will be a better day.

But who am i kidding?

I'm sick of everything.

I just want to lie on my bed of blood.

Stripped away of all this pain and hate.

A true eternal rest.