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A rainy night.

Most suited for my mood.

Sigh.
I am so tired.
So so tired.

I just want to curl up in my dark corner.
To forget about everything.
And to cry every damn thing out.

But no tears left.
My eyes are dry.

As i laze against a corner of my cell.
I think and reflect.
A harsh laugh issues from my throat.

Laughing at my own stupidity.

Sometimes.
I don't know.

To laugh.
To cry.

Or to bleed myself some more.

Guess there is nothing left to feel.
But absolute numbness.

A heart that no longer loves.
But has grown to hate.

Now all of you.
Shall see.

At how i shall.
Tear myself apart.
And to eventually go to hell.

In a whirlwind.
Of bloodied destruction.